Just noticed the other day that I'm approaching that milestone, and I feel like I should do or post something special to mark the occasion (especially considering I completely neglected 100). Problem is I have no idea what that special thing could be. On the off chance that someone is reading this and has an idea, I'd love to hear about it. And if I don't end up doing anything, then I'd like to say that I appreciate all of you! It's a weird feeling to think that near 200 people have shown some degree of interest in what I've made. Weird but wonderful and quite comforting when I start feeling really down on myself, so thank you all!
Releasing the first episode of DPoE marks the first time I've actually completed a project that I started, and I'm just at a loss on what to do now. I looked through my older ideas to see if any of them could translate well to a visual novel, I considered doing a second episode of DPoE, I've tried to come up with an even better idea like i did with Venomous, I even started writing a bunch of lore and crap for a brand new fantasy world like I used to do way back in the day with TG, but none of these things have really galvanized my creative spirit.
I suppose the reason I'm at a loss here is because for so long I've just been trying to get to the point of having something actually feasible that I created, That was my entire goal, and I never thought about what I'd do after that. Could it be that I expected more? Perhaps I thought that once I got to this point then I'd finally be able to determine who I am and what I want, maybe even silence this incessant restless feeling, and have some god damn clarity for once.
I'm sick of this! No more speculation! No more doubts! No more searching for answers that I'm never gonna find! Just live. Gosh darn it, this is just like that SU episode with the key after all, I thought it might be, but of course I kept trying to find a more complicated answer to everything, just like in the fricken episode! Oh well, it's time to go to bed.